Blaine met the look but said nothing. He suspected it was different, but he didn't know. When you had the power to keep someone with you forever it was a hard thing to resist. He'd only been forced to deal with death before his Embrace when it was fact and irreversible.

At Joslin's stubborn resistance Blaine's face went blank for a moment. He had thought of himself as a monster sometimes, but that was even before he had gotten fangs. Never had he thought of himself or Matthew as an abomination.

"So when I got thrown out of the hospital window and shoved into the limo you drove all those years ago I went from a friend to an abomination to you?" he asked, his face deceptively neutral as he eyed the petulant man in front of him. "Was at the time we've spent together all these years just you tolerating me? Matthew?"